Speechless

We all have heard the news about J.C. Dugard and her children. My heart really really hurts for her. I'm tearful as I write because I can't fathom the terror this child had to go threw. I myself am a survivor of child molestation. It's taken my years to even begin to deal with my truths. For along long time I was mad at Jesus. I blamed him for not protecting me, for not keeping me safe. I was raised as a Catholic and I went to church every Sunday as well as going to Catholic School. I was also abused and beaten by one of the schools nuns. Go figure!

I don't want this blog to be about religion even though I do consider myself as a "Recovering Catholic" I want to write about the hope's of the future and what it holds for all. Yet at the same time I remember just how bad J.C. and her children had to live for the past 18 years. I can not compare any of my experiences to what this child/children had to live threw. But the sad part is her children don't know any different and that's the way it is for many of us doormats. We don't know we are even a doormat much less finding and discovering a different way of life.

"What you don't know, you don't know."

How do you know what a strawberry taste's like if all you've had is plastic.
How do you know what love is if all you've had is pain.

Even though I'm no longer a Catholic. I do believe very strongly. Yet in today's age and from what has been told about J.C. I'm having some doubts. I have to remind myself about the fact that God did give us the ability of choice. It's our privilege to be able and free to make choices. Unfortunately I have come to believe not that not all of us make the right choice's. That is why many people are locked up in prison's.

I don't think Philip Garrido will ever take responsibility for his crimes. His past history proves this.

But to those of you who have knowledge of being a doormat, who have experienced it's demeaning affect it has on us. Do yourself a favor and get some professional help as I have.

If it sounds like I'm rambling more than I normally am. Please understand my lack of focus. I can't stop thinking about J.C. and her babies. Animals are treated better then she was.

The police have there hands full just keep this perp alive. I'm sure there are millions of people having the same thoughts I'm having.